Rainbows

When I started this blog, I asked myself in what order should I write my blog regarding my life experiences? So I decided to treat this blog writing the same way I do my song writing. I pray and I wait for God to lead me and guide me on what, when and how he wants me to share my life with you! When I was getting ready to start my Senior year in High School I found out that I was 3 months pregnant. Back then, they did not let girls that were pregnant attend school. They had an in home program called Home Bound, where the teacher comes to your home.
After learning that I was going to be a mommy we began quickly planning a wedding in two weeks! Robby ended up coming a month early! After he was born, the next week I turned 18 yrs old. He was a beautiful child. People would stop us all the time to tell us how beautiful he was. A year in a half later I would be faced with going through a divorce!
On Memorial Day of 1983 I was suppose to work at market that day but I was sick with a virus. The night before we had made plans to go with a friend to see the movie Flash Dance. She had unexpected company and had to cancel. That night Robby and I headed to our home and I laid down with him in his bed. I read him a book and we said our prayers. I fell asleep in his bed. I had a dream. The dream was that I had gone on to the movie and left him at the house. Upon returning home when I turned the corner on my street my house was ingulfed in flames. It was at that moment that I woke up and started throwing up.
I called my mom to come and get him and she did. I remember he was in the den eating his cereal and he was hollering for me to turn the ceiling fan off! My mom came and got him. Several hours later she called and asked me if Robby could go to my ex inlaws home until his Dad would come and pick him up. Every Monday his Dad would come and get him and keep him over night. I called and his Grandmother said that would be fine. He had been there about an hour when I got the call from her neighbor that there had been an accident and they needed to come and get me. I decided I wanted to get to the hospital faster so I called my friend down the street. When we got to the hospital they were still working on him. After a while they decided to transfer him to a children's hospital downtown. They transferred him by ambulance. By Wed. things started to spiral downhill. Around Thurs they transferred us to another hospital and they wanted to run test to see if there were any brain waves. On Fri. morning they would tell us there were no brain waves and we were faced we having to disconnect life support. When the Dr.'s disconnected the machine he passed away and while that was taking place we watched the life slowly leave his body. At that moment there was a loud burst of thunder and all the lights in the hospital went out! We left in darkness! It was chaos at the hospital because the ICU nurses were running in the halls making sure the back up systems were working! At one point I thought The Lord was returning!
Once we were in the car and heading home, one side of the sky was light, the other dark and there were two complete rainbows in the sky with two white doves in the center of the Rainbows. At the funeral we shared our story and when we were at the graveside one of my friends brought me a piece of paper that she had written a poem on. This poem came to her around the same time that Robby died. She later cross stitched the poem and it is in my den today!
This wasn't the only time in my life that God would send me Rainbows. But because he speaks to me by sending me Rainbows, I have a very close and intimate relationship with him! Have you ever asked him to send you a sign?
God's plan we do not always see
With the human eye
It's hard to find the reason
When a little boy must die.
He is familiar with your grief
The hurt, the loss, the stun.
You see "For God so loved the world
He sent his only son.
He's promised us a better life
For those that will believe
Eternal life and happiness
Await us when we leave
He gave a promise long ago
And to show that he'd be true
He sent a sign, a rainbow
For the world, for me, for you
And when I heard that he had died
I looked up to the sky
And I thought, " God how can that be?
Then something caught my eye
A Rainbow for Robby
Today Febuary 24 the would be Robby's 35th birthday!